Remember

Love.Love with all your might,sacrifice everything for the worthy.Action.Stop analyzing.Do it now.Tomorrow you might not be alive to.Feelings.Express them as soon as possible.People won't always be there to hear them out.








Saturday, March 24, 2012

Watashi no Kuroi Tenshi - Hymn 4

 Confusion was imprinted on Jacobs face while he stared at Michael,trying at the same time to think of a logical explanation for all that had occured so far.

 ''Don't worry about everything so much,i promise i shall explain everything to you in due time.'',said Michael calmly. Why was it that every word he said had such an effect on Jacob? Why was Jacob so attracted to a man who had broken into his home and wouldn't tell him anything about the mystery he was wrapped in?
  Michael touched his hand and held it in the warmest palm Jacob had ever felt. He was moving closer and closer to him. Michael whispered:''Close your eyes for a moment..I will make amends for all the anxiety i have put you through right away.''
''What do you m...'' He didn't have the chance to finish his sentence.
  
   A hand was sliding over his zipper and pulling it down. He couldn't help but have an instant reaction. His face felt hot and certainly had the deepest red anyone could imagine. Was he supposed to fight back? Scream for help?..But was he feeling that bad?
 The only sensation he felt at that moment was complete lust for the man who was gently playing with his genitals.

 He decided to let go. Let go of his thoughts,his morals,his prejudice towards all that was uknown and new. This sensation,he was certain it would change his world.He than looked at Michaels face.

''You..you don't have to do that..I get it,apology accepted.I haven't even thanked you about before..'' said Jacob gently,trying to keep his composure and his head clear.
   Michael raised his head slowly and almost stuck nose to nose with him.
''Thank me?I do not find that necessary,you could say i was simply trying to do my job.I don't deny that i am personally interested in you though. The fact that you are aware of my existence made me act the way i did.I was surprised myself..''

''You keep talking in riddles,why won't you finally explain? I can't wait until later,who else knows what else could happen!? Maybe i will get ran over by a bus or God might strike a lightning down on me or something!!'' Jacob mumbled trying to sound convincing.

''Hahaha..I assure you God is far too busy to have time to play with lightnings.I think i should start explaining what i can for now,after i pull up your zipper that is.''
Jacob pulled Michaels hand away fast.
''I can do that myself you know!!!!!''he said alarmed.

  Michael stood up from the bed and walked towards the light coming from the window. Then Jacob saw it,how could he not have noticed earlier?A large black pair of wings ,apparently attached to Michaels back, became gradually visible. He turned around and smiled.

Jacob was in awe,in a bad way..What was he up against? An angel?? How could it be that a gorgeus attractive young man,apart from his looks,perfectly normal to the eye was a supernatural being?!?! He tried to walk as fast as possible towards the door,but hit against something warm and big.


To be continued...

Monday, October 03, 2011

Watashi no Kuroi Tenshi - Hymn 3

 All was quiet while he drove home in a taxi,except for the rain that was slowly weakening. The roads were completely empty. It was already past 4 am. He finally reached the bulding where he lived. Those 4 stories seemed to him like an endless scyscraper at the time.  He climbed the stairs zombiefied and arrived at his doorstep,after the 5 minutes that left the feeling a century had past. He found his keys,unlocked the door and walked in. The room started spinning around and then it was all gone.

  There was already light coming through the windows when he regained his consciousness. He was lying flat in his bed with something warm right beside him.
 ''Oh,you are awake! It's not very wise to leave your front  door wide open nowadays you know. I gotta admit you didnt look comfortable on the floor either.''

Jacob backed off in a flash,stuck to the wall and shook like hell trying not to yell out loud.

''H-how..did you..i mean,why...i mean...WHAT IN THE WORLD???????????''
      His eyes remained on the intruder who was no other than his airport saviour.
''How rude of me i havent even introduced myself,I am Michael.And obviously i have taken an interest in you dear Jacob.''
  He started walking up to him and pressed him harder against the wall. Jacob was speachless.He didnt try to escape,maybe the intruder was some obsessed serial killing stalker so he wouldnt take any chances,he thought.
''Relax,i wont ever harm you.You look very much like your father you know..He was a really good man.''
He remained silent for a moment.
''Let's skip that subject,for now at least.So,apparently you can see me. And not only see me,touch me as well.Very interesting...''

Jacob was lost.Completely.How did a stranger looking his age know his father who had died in an accident when he was only 9? And why wouldnt he be able to see him?He was just a normal guy,maybe a bit better looking than most but regular generally..Or was he?



(to be continued....)

Thursday, August 04, 2011

Yoru no me,part IX

  There it was,the same pattern all over again.Chaos,darkness,anxiety. But this time he saw a fading figure,with long blood red hair.Her face was vast though..He felt at ease at her presence. He knew at least she wasnt the one after him. She was someone close,even if he couldnt recognise her,he knew she was important to his life. It was the last time that figure visited his dream,so not long afterwards he forgot all about it.

  Days,weeks,months passed at his new residence. After registering at the nearby school he was meant to spend the next three years,he would regurarly wander the streets in search of sources that might help him retrieve his lost memories or find the mysterious person Rara.
  It was no good.He felt helpless and desperate. That desperation increased everyday making him sometimes violent and bad behaved towards Sakura,even though he deeply regreted it afterwards he would not say a thing.
 They slowly drifted away from each other.Practically so close everyday,yet so far apart. After a period of time they would hardly exchange a word and Noroi would sometimes curse at Sakura when she piled up the courage to try and approach him like before. She started hanging around other people in class and making friends she never had the chance to have. She had turned into a normal,or at least looking like one, teenager. It made Noroi feel peaceful even if he wasnt the only one beside her now.

 The day  of their graduation was finally coming to an end and after his disturbing sleep,Noroi decided to go out on a walk to the cental square to find someone to pass his time with. He was certain Sakura would be also out with her friends celebrating the end of their student lives and the entrance to adulthood. He wanted to drink as much as he could to drown the memories of his resultless searches for clues. Giving up was not an option even if he was still in the dark about everything.
 He walked past billboards and shopping windows,bars,restaurants but nothing seemed attracting. He heard women commenting while he passed them by,but he was too sick of the same type of girls that always hit on him. None of them was a good fuck or a good company even if he got drunk while with them.
 The sun had gone down hours ago and he was reaching the other side of town,where thugs,junkies and prostitutes filled the roads. A strangly familiar scent grabbed his attention minutes after he had entered the main road of the area. He followed his nose,shoving people aside to get past the hookers that had gathered around him the second they saw him approach. The scent had wrapped him around it and was pulling him in. All his other senses were blocked. He practically crawled to an alley that led off the scent that drugged him.

 The alley was dark and he couldnt see much because the moon was hidden behind some clouds at that moment. Something warm fell on his face. The scent had gotten furiously strong. He smiled. The drop of blood climbed down his lips slowly. Something else glistened in the back of the dead end alley. Red. It was everywhere. In a flash he was back to his dream. She was there.How could he forget about her?

 The moon slowly moved out of the clouds and then he saw her. Tall,with her long red hair,her clothes soaked in blood.She looked really young,at his age or a bit older. At her feet was a body. A womans body. A hooker most likely. It wasnt breathing anymore. He didnt have a chance to blink and she was gone. His felt like his heart stopped. Cold lips were pressed against his ear.

-''Where have you been..?''
He panicked and tried to kill the creature with the long hair by removing all the oxygen around. He heard a laugh coming from behind him this time.
-''Silly..After all these years we were apart and you try to kill me? If I was at least still breathing it would make it more fun,but its still fun to watch you try i guess..''
She pushed him to the ground. He was powerless in front of her. He knew there were paranormal beings out there,he was one himself after all,but what was she? And why was she so friendly with him? Why did he find the scent of all this blood so sweet and attractive? She bit him slightly on the side of his mouth while staring at him with her clear grey eyes. She left him lying there,covered in the blood of her victim.

 Would he see her again? This had gotten him even more lost than before. He was angry and confused. Why? Why didnt she stay to explain?
 He got up in despair,threw away his shirt and tore half of his pants off so that the stains would be less noticeable. He ran with all his might. More charges and suspicion was the last thing he needed right now.



(to be continued...)

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Watashi no Kuroi Tenshi - Hymn 2

  Jacob remained silent for a while.. He couldn't hear anyone outside so he didn't waste his voice in calling out for help,it would only exhaust him.
 And after a moment the lights went out.The unfortunate events followed one another.
His biggest fear had practically come true. He was trapped in a narrow place in full darkness. He closed his eyes and tried to empty his mind as much as he could. The only thing he could think about in the end was him. His eyes,his voice,his smell,the touch of his hand. Even if it was all his fault,while bringing him to his mind he felt at ease.
 And snap! The door cracked open..The emergency lights went on as well. Jacob crawled cautiously out of the bathroom. He could hear people running and yelling,sirens too. The terminals were occupied by chaos.
Security guards,employees,the police and even fire fighters were all over the place calming people down and guiding them away.

What in the world happened...?

 He stood up slowly and then he saw it. A plane had caught on fire along  with some airport buses that must have been nearby. It had litterally split in half and there wasn't anything clear left to see. It was the plane he was supposed to board,wasn't it... He felt extremely fainty and stood speechless staring at the flames.
 Suddenly someone grabbed his shoulder. He flickered before he turned around to see it was just a security guard. Who exactly was he expecting it to be? He felt dissapointed and stupid at the same time.
  ''Excuse me sir, we are evacuating. There will be no more flights today. You will have to alter your ticket later on. We apologise for the inconvience. Please follow the crowd towards the exit.'' he told him quickly.
  ''No..I was supposed to board that flight..'' Jacob replied in an almost whispering tone.
The guard kept silent for a second.
   ''You must have a guardian angel or something. There were no survivors from this flight..''

(to be continued..)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Yoru no me,part VIII

 Noroi stood back and sighed in relief. His work there was done,he guessed. He felt slightly at ease but he knew after he had left Sakura,the hardest part would begin for him.
 He picked up his luggage from the living room and started to head outside. Sakura realised it and ran towards him.
-''What's wrong..?'' she asked.'' Where are you going?''
-''Well,i dont seem to belong here,i didnt come with you to take shelter anyway.I made sure that everything will work out and now that it did,i have to go on. I need to start taking care of myself on my own,i would never want to be a burden and i need to get to the bottom of this.My past that is..So i will look for a place to live in,and a school that is low profile for us to get into. When the time is right i will come to get you.Dont worry...You know i can protect myself better than anyone.''
  He looked back at her aunt and nodded a goodbye.She smiled and formed a ''thank you'' with her lips. He turned back to Sakura once more. She had a worrysome and kind of sad look in her eyes. She jumped at him and held him tight. He tensed up at first but then relaxed in her arms.
-''I'll be waiting.'' she told him and slowly let go of him.
 He kissed her on the forehead and walked out of the house.

 He went back to the bus station they had gotten off some hours ago and rode towards downtown again. He had an astray feeling of confusion but he tried to ignore it. And he managed to. With the money he carried he would be able to pull off for a long time and buy his way in and out of almost anything,for that he was reassured. He passed by a neighbourhood that seemed aproppriate for a start. Ghettolike and a bit loud,looked like a place where noone would ask much. It was perfect,he thought. And nobody would suspect a 14 year old of much either. After looking around and asking random older people he was told about a building with empty apartments for rent.
 He walked up to the number he was told and faced a grey,unkept building covered in graffitti and dirt. On the lower stories he could see windows broken and garbage filled corners. He didnt mind it as long as he had the peace he needed. He knocked on the landladys door and waited. After a while an old spinster with a sour expression opened slightly enough to be able to put her head out.

-''Huh?! A brat..What it is?'' she asked suspiciously.
Noroi put his kindest tone and frown on and responded.
-''Excuse me madame for the disturbance..I was told that you are renting empty apartments and i am interested in occupying one if possible.'' At least he had to get along with that woman if he was going to live here,he thought while smiling at her.
-''And you,a child,wanting to live on your own? And who'll be paying me the rent,i dont see any parent behind you and you dont seem to be a working boy in the least!Now get lost!'' she said ironically,almost ready to close the door.
Noroi didnt lose his patience. He pulled a package of bills and handed it to the lady,his hand blocking the door,smiling the whole time.
-''I hope that this will cover my first months,wont it madame?''
 That shut her up.She looked greedy from the beginning,the kind of woman who would die along with her inheritance burried in her arms and nobody to mourn her.
-''But of course Sir,please excuse me for my doubts before.It is 306 for you,on the third floor.If possible wait here until i bring you the contract to sign.''she said satisfied politely as if she'd turned to somebody else.
 Noroi was pleased. The circumstances couldn't have been any more helpful on his behalf.

 Money can do anything after all,he said to himself. He was led up the stairs after signing a scrappy contract,to a small apartment but big enough for one or two people to live in. He was given the key and the lady wished him a pleasant stay.As if.. The walls were dull,painted a fainted lilac barely noticable,at least it was better than grey. There was a medium sized living room along with the kitchen which was placed behind a wooden barrier in the background. There was a bathroom with broken tiles,a regular sized shower blackened in the corners and a crooked mirror above its sink. The bedroom had a wooden floor surprisingly not destroyed and smelled like death. Even more like murder he thought.
 The furniture wasn't as damaged either so he would just have to clean up the place a bit and it would be inhabitable. He sat on the couch,happy that one of his problems was solved for now. He would go downstairs later and ask the landlady for some information on local schools he and Sakura could go to. Even if he had higher goals and more important matters to him,he couldnt be wandering around as a school dropout and he would not allow Sakura to either. He got up,took off his clothes and walked into his familiar smelling bedroom,and then he slowly closed his eyes for the first time there,to have again the only dream he had ever had. But this time,it was different..

                   (to be continued..)

Thursday, May 05, 2011

Yoru no me,part VII

  The route was long and the wagon was pretty empty..As Sakura was sleeping next to him he was figuring their next move. They passed by small suburbs while heading towards the big city's downtown. He found everything indifferent.. Some hours later the central station started to show in the distance. He slowly moved away from Sakuras side and woke her up.
 ''Get ready we are almost there.And be prepared..This is going to be a long day.''
 She looked around while yawning and picked up her luggage.They disembarged and found themselves surrounded by alot of people that looked to be in a hurry.Sakura held on tightly to Noroi.
 ''And now what..?'' she asked him worried. He made a sign to her to wait and walked towards the information stand.She saw him talking to the clerk for some time and noticed that he was writting something down.
 ''And now we got ourselves a location!'' he said while pulling her by the hand through the crowd.
  They boarded a bus heading to an area Sakura knew she had heard off. It sounded really familiar generally to her but she was pretty sure she had not ever been there. The bus drove through traffic packed streets before they turned to an abandonded looking area filled with trash,dirt and empty looking buildings.
 ''This is the last stop.'',the driver announced. They stepped off the bus and started looking for the address on the file.After an hour of wandering on the streets they finally found it.
 They stood in front of a decent looking house with a yard,surrounded by a metal fence. The front door was opened so they slowly walked in.
 ''Who's there?!'' they heard a female voice shouting from deep inside the house.It was a two story well kept building.It certainly didnt house poor people. A woman around her mid thirties jumped right in front of them holding a hammer. Sakura stepped back surprised.
 ''I'm sorry madam we didnt mean to startle you,we dont mean any harm..'' Noroi told her with a frank tone. ''If you are Suzu Kareta,could we go somewhere we can talk?'' he asked.
 The woman led them into the living room.She had black hair and blue eyes like Sakura but was dressed pretty randomly despite the good look of her house.The living room was dusty and filled with family pictures and Noroi was sure the lady lived alone for a long time.
''So tell me what are you here to talk about? Because im a not giving any money to no charity any more.'' she said slightly annoyed.
 Sakura stood up and picked a photograph that had drawn her attention from the moment they walked in.
''The woman in the white dress..May i please ask?What is she to you?''she said.
The woman suddenly sgot up from the couch and started yelling.
''What does it have to do with you??Bringing her up like that..She destroyed us that whore...She ruined what was left of my family!!! Get out of my house right away!'' She was clearly upset almost crying but then she kept still.
Noroi had his eyes on her and started speaking.'' I dont want to do something i dont have to,so would you be kind enough to listen to what she has to day and answer?''he said with a soft smile,absolutely calm.
 She sat back on the couch without denyal.
''That's my sister.She left home after my father passed away.It drove my mother crazy.She came by all the time begging for money and we could see what she had become.
My mother was desperate to get her back but she would not listen to anything.She dived deeper and deeper in shit.Everytime she came she looked worse.Then we found out she had started selling her body when we would'nt give her any more money. My mother killed herself not long after that..I started hating my sister for it.I wish she would die too.
And some years after she did..How ironic..And then the social services came by and insisted to talk to me about something but i drove them away.I did not want any relation to her and i didnt want to hear anything about her either.
The damage she had done was never going to be mended anyway..So what about her?After all this time what do you want to know?''she was starting to ease up after telling her story to them and stared right into Sakura's eyes.
 ''She was my mother..And i found out shortly ago that you might be my only living relative..'' Sakura said.
''She has done much harm to me too,if you hate her that makes two of us.I am sorry if i am not wanted here but i just wanted to find out at least who you were.
And thank you for sharing my mother's and your past with me..I am sure i would have never found out about it if it wasnt for you..''
The woman observed Sakura from head to toe,she could see the resemblance clearly now.
  She once again stood up and walked to Sakura's side..She streched her arms,no emotion on her face.
Noroi got up right away,alarmed, ready to stop her if necessary.
        But then,the woman wrapped her hands around her and began to cry..

                              ( to be continued..)

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Yoru no me,part VI

  They now had a new destination. The train had finally arrived.

 ''You know that i am wanted now dont you?'' he spoke straight while looking into her eyes.
 ''I wont leave things like this i dont want you involved in the least..Could you give me your orphanage suit and change into something else? Trust me and do it please.'' She remained silent and returned quickly.She handed him the clothes and went back inside.

He took off his shirt and tore it apart,his shoes too. He noticed a pigeon sitting at the edge of a bench a bit further from their spot.He approached it.
     The death was instant.
 He grabbed its head and broke it like it was a paper doll.The blood slowly started flowing on the clothes.  That would do the job.
   He then ripped some of his hair and mixed it with the blood on his shirt.
 He returned to the platform and approached the guard.
''You are aware of the orphanage near this area dont you?''
He spoke to the scared guard who looked obviously frightened at him and answered possitively in a trembling voice.
''Alright i have work for you,and dont worry you will be paid more than enough for it.
Take these clothes to the orphanage and tell them you found two childrens bodies in the drench past the bridge and the clothes were the only thing left intact.''
 The train started whistling.
He stuffed a bunch of money in the guards hand and boarded.
While moving from the platform he shouted at him.''If you fulfill my request as I wish,there will be more from where these came from next time.'' The guard noded and saluted the boy.
 Noroi caught Sakura staring at him from her seat.
 ''Dont worry.There will definitely not be a next time we come back here.'' he said reassuringly. '' And there will be noone searching for us anymore..''
 He sat next to her.She looked different away from that place. The light made her eyes and hair sparkle as the sun rose in the sky. He whispered at her.''Thank you..'' She fell asleep shortly afterwards.

He felt a bit funny with a piece of his hair missing on the back of his head. He still stood out too much even if everyone started to think they were dead he had to change so that he would research and look for Rara with more ease.After he made sure Sakura could start a new life he would change from head to toes even if she wasnt happy about it,he felt he had to. He looked at her peaceful face and felt a small flame of hope lighting inside him where he thought only an empty heart existed.
 He thought he might have started resembling humans a bit more..

                                                                                  (to be continued..)